At this point in my life I’m in flux

Certain Uncertainties

At this point in my life I’m in flux, I’m going through a career change and with that comes an amount of uncertainty, it’s not something I’m a stranger to because I thrive in new environments and love to have new experiences and challenges but it does make me feel a little afraid, again that’s not a bad thing, it’s just a thing, a natural thing.

I’m certain I’m going to enjoy the new job. I’m certainly not going to miss my previous job but there’s also a part of me that’s sad to go.

I’ve worked in my current job for about 4 years now and the majority of my time with the company has been positive, but after injuring my shoulder and not being able to progress in the way I wanted to, it just put a massive dampener on things and I’m finding myself wishing the days away until I can leave.

I’m definitely going to miss some of the people I’ve worked with and for over the years, I’m hopeful that we’ll stay in contact but I’m also aware that good intentions and things like that don’t always happen, but I’m going to try my hardest to stay in touch with some of them.

So I’m sat here at home before a late shift, I’ve recently felt myself wanting to write more blogs which is why you’re seeing a regular stream of content from me at the moment, I think that when I’m going through changes I tend to document things, not consciously but I’ve noticed a pattern to my creative outputs, I should really try to be creative without the fluctuating energy but maybe at times that’s my driving force.

I blogged yesterday about the uncomfortable situation with my forthcoming pay packet and I just wanted to clarify things for anyone that thought I might’ve been trying to laugh about it or that I was comparing myself to being in poverty, I have experienced having to survive on £50 for a month, it was one of the hardest and demoralising periods of my life so I want to reiterate the fact that it certainly wasn’t where I was coming from, for me, sometimes for me to deal with an awkward situation like the one I’m about to deal with, I try to look for the humour within, if I can “laugh” about something then I know it’s going to be ok, and it will, it will just be fucking unpleasant, but it has to happen because I signed a contract agreeing to it.

I’m extremely lucky to be able to be supported through this time, which isn’t something I ever want to think I’m taking for granted, I try very hard to be financially independent after being debt free since 2016, it’s not always easy but I try.

I got quite a few messages on Facebook in regards to yesterday’s post and it was really nice to have your advice and thoughts, thank you!

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